There is something that is so tough about having no one to converse with. No one to share ideas and give feedback. No one to point out a mistake and help you because they share an interest. I have come to the realization that - among my friends - I cannot reach out for their guidance on pieces like this. They don't know what it's like to write music, and so I sit the only one, with some special craft. They of course love to listen to my music and try to understand where I am coming from, but It's not the same. Recently though (and this contributes to Melody B) I have found a place among a discord server where I feel at home. I am able to look up-to, and help others because It's what I love to do. I found a place where my ideas and expressions are not uncommon, but embraced with wide arms, and it feels amazing. Yet I still feel that sense of disconnect with the people in my real life - That's why the melody comes back - because they still don't know. So right now, it feels as though I am The Only One who truly understands how I feel.
Thank you for listening and if you're reading this It means a great deal to me. Thanks to: Yoni Flat.io Earther Caio Vegas and BC Mix Music You are the people I needed in my world so I could express myself; I am forever grateful.