Escape

Hey everyone. Wampus here. Although, you might better know me by my main account @andymillikan . Yes it's me. Yes this is an alt. So, last fall, @groovy told me this idea he had of making a second account to write music that didn't "fit" his main account, such as a different style or just simply not as mainstream. His second account is my account's "best friend", @cryoflow . The point of this account was completely different. I'm sure many of you saw my experiment piece, Emotions. If not I'll link it below and you should go listen to that and read the description there before listening to this.I’ve been going through a ton of stress lately, got diagnosed with AvPD, had to go on new pills for my Generalized Anxiety/Depression, got diagnosed with ADHD, trying pills for that, took too many hard classes at once, and on top of that all, have been a terrible friend and boyfriend to Leah. I’ve always struggled to show my emotions, and I’ve never been able to let them out properly or safely. I’ve always held in my emotions until reaching a breaking point, where I would become overly violent to everything around me, leading to holes in the wall, broken devices, and broken relationships. Then Leah came along, and made me happy and gave me a reason to be alive. I’ve grown so much as a person since being with her, but I still struggle with the exact same things. I can’t focus, I can’t talk about how I feel, I can’t get things done in time to enjoy myself. I just cycle around through procrastinating and then stressing to the point of suicidal thoughts and rushing through my work and lashing out at everyone around me.

I *will* fix it, and I *will not* stop trying until I get there. That, I promise you Leah. I love you with all my heart, and even though I may not show it, you’re my everything and I will give everything to make sure I can keep you.
https://flat.io/score/5ec4ac3fc7d6386cff473f45-emotions
https://flat.io/score/5fe126da7922fb475189dfed-rebirth