Checkpoint #3
~ the happenings in Squid’s life ~
Hey guys!
Welcome to Checkpoint #3, formerly known as Slice of Life. So, I started this series months ago to keep my wonderful community (you guys!) updated on happenings in my life and to help me stay updated on yours. Here’s the 3rd entry in the series.
Well, it’s summer. There’s not much to do. It’s pretty boring and kinda depressing.
Emotionally, I’m still struggling in some ways. I mean, depression paired with abandonment issues and trust issues is a potent combination.
Physically, I’m doing alright. I’m healthy. Being tall is nice.
Musically, I’m still struggling. I’m still dealing with some writers block. However, I am hosting a composition competition which is fun! I’ve been trying to find different composition competitions, scholarships, grants, and residencies I can apply to but unfortunately I’m not eligible for many of them and the ones I am eligible for usually have insane application fees. I’ve been trying to branch out and share my music in more places than just Flat, but I’ve had little success there. It’s hard not to get discouraged. I’ve been doing my best to engage with and grow my community (with things like the competition and this Checkpoint series) which is fun but I’m not seeing much growth.
I’ve been feeling a bit trapped or stuck in my hometown recently which sucks. Naturally, I’m proud of my hometown because I live here but I don’t think this is the place for me. There’s not enough for me and I don’t really want to stay for any longer than I have to. My dreams are a lot bigger than this village. But my friends and amazing girlfriend are here, and I don’t want to leave them behind. I love them more than anything else. So I won’t leave them behind. But it still leaves me just a little torn.
I think that’s it for today. Now, it’s your turn! If you’d like, give me a checkpoint on YOUR life in the comments. You can be as vague or as specific as you want.
Hope you enjoy the silly little clarinet trio!
Much love,
- SquiddyCuh <3
Welcome to Checkpoint #3, formerly known as Slice of Life. So, I started this series months ago to keep my wonderful community (you guys!) updated on happenings in my life and to help me stay updated on yours. Here’s the 3rd entry in the series.
Well, it’s summer. There’s not much to do. It’s pretty boring and kinda depressing.
Emotionally, I’m still struggling in some ways. I mean, depression paired with abandonment issues and trust issues is a potent combination.
Physically, I’m doing alright. I’m healthy. Being tall is nice.
Musically, I’m still struggling. I’m still dealing with some writers block. However, I am hosting a composition competition which is fun! I’ve been trying to find different composition competitions, scholarships, grants, and residencies I can apply to but unfortunately I’m not eligible for many of them and the ones I am eligible for usually have insane application fees. I’ve been trying to branch out and share my music in more places than just Flat, but I’ve had little success there. It’s hard not to get discouraged. I’ve been doing my best to engage with and grow my community (with things like the competition and this Checkpoint series) which is fun but I’m not seeing much growth.
I’ve been feeling a bit trapped or stuck in my hometown recently which sucks. Naturally, I’m proud of my hometown because I live here but I don’t think this is the place for me. There’s not enough for me and I don’t really want to stay for any longer than I have to. My dreams are a lot bigger than this village. But my friends and amazing girlfriend are here, and I don’t want to leave them behind. I love them more than anything else. So I won’t leave them behind. But it still leaves me just a little torn.
I think that’s it for today. Now, it’s your turn! If you’d like, give me a checkpoint on YOUR life in the comments. You can be as vague or as specific as you want.
Hope you enjoy the silly little clarinet trio!
Much love,
- SquiddyCuh <3
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