Regrets
February Challenge
This piece is about my most recent breakup, and what I'd say to my ex if I were to text him today.
The story was, Crow (pseudonym) and I started dating in March 2024. We were an amazing couple. In September, I left for college. In November, we broke up. I'm starting to regret breaking up with him, a lot. Anyways, we broke up, and we said it's cuz he couldn't give me what I need in the future. I don't know if that's true. I think it might have been right person, wrong time, honestly. But that's the story. So in this, the music in a way, symbolizes me imagining if I texting him, telling him all of this. And then he told me he agrees, and then we rekindle it. But then I start to overthink. It's why I don't end up texting him. I want to, I want to rekindle the relationship. But I end up deleting the text I wrote, so that he can't see.
And now, my letter
Dear Crow,
If you happen to use Flat, and you see this, I know you know it's me, because I put my name on here, and I know you know who you are. If you see this, do what you will. I miss you, and I really wish we didn't break up. I want you back. I really, truly do. You were the best part of my life for the better part of a year. And it truly hurts to not be with you. I know we said we'd still be friends, but I'm not ready for that. I just want to be with you. I want you, and nothing else. It feels like that's the only thing that matters to me. I know you'd tell me not to sacrifice my needs, but I don't know that it would be a sacrifice. If you're reading this, you can choose to text me, or not. I want to be friends again one day. I'm just not ready.
Happy late birthday,
Phoenix
The story was, Crow (pseudonym) and I started dating in March 2024. We were an amazing couple. In September, I left for college. In November, we broke up. I'm starting to regret breaking up with him, a lot. Anyways, we broke up, and we said it's cuz he couldn't give me what I need in the future. I don't know if that's true. I think it might have been right person, wrong time, honestly. But that's the story. So in this, the music in a way, symbolizes me imagining if I texting him, telling him all of this. And then he told me he agrees, and then we rekindle it. But then I start to overthink. It's why I don't end up texting him. I want to, I want to rekindle the relationship. But I end up deleting the text I wrote, so that he can't see.
And now, my letter
Dear Crow,
If you happen to use Flat, and you see this, I know you know it's me, because I put my name on here, and I know you know who you are. If you see this, do what you will. I miss you, and I really wish we didn't break up. I want you back. I really, truly do. You were the best part of my life for the better part of a year. And it truly hurts to not be with you. I know we said we'd still be friends, but I'm not ready for that. I just want to be with you. I want you, and nothing else. It feels like that's the only thing that matters to me. I know you'd tell me not to sacrifice my needs, but I don't know that it would be a sacrifice. If you're reading this, you can choose to text me, or not. I want to be friends again one day. I'm just not ready.
Happy late birthday,
Phoenix
Published
Piano
Trumpet
Flute